Sometimes i wonder whether i made the right choice pursuing geography. I find myself struggling to find interest in my notes, although i thoroughly understand the concepts and their socioecological applications.
Take my Natural Hazards mod for example - i skipped all lectures throughout the sem save for the first and last, read through only the most relevant notes for my term essay and annotated biblio, and studied only questions that i spotted for today’s final. Eventually spotted one question accurately but not the other, and had to haphazardly scramble up a few pages from the concepts i vaguely remembered using in my term assignment.
And then it hit me - what am i studying for? I feel sad when i think about the modules i completed last year and realize that i don’t recall the module content, probably because i never learned much to begin with. Memorising chunks of case studies and entire essay outlines makes for a decent final grade, but i gain nothing at the end of the day